Embers flare with every breath, and lazy turns the drifting smoke, dancing in the quiet air.
I foundthe strengthto fall today I foundthe courage to breakand to be broken by fear I foundthe will to stay downinstead of riseand escape the pain of more I founda way to watchthe last of megive itself away I foundthat I could let goand face this painas I should alone I foundthe strengthto fail today again
There are holes in me now, empty spaces empty places that you've left behind; I struggle to fill them with hope and with light, and pieces of me that I've buried inside, but from nothing comes nothing, leaving nothing to hide.
I Ama work in progressof my own makingthe Voice of the Musethe Voice of ChaosEternity waking
fluid linesexposethe peaceof thewriter's souland betraythe fearsof theheart
Around me a revolt of life color and sound the fury of being and the peace of home – you, in the center, surrounding me, stillness in motion, an easy calm; passing through this veiled existence in a revolutionof being who I am there is you.
In you I find my undoing,void of being soughtin the chaos of living;that you have chosen meand allowed me to beall that I am not,and carried me past the edgeof all I thought I wasmakes me yours. And I am yours,as I am,surrenderedto youin your embrace,and the angerof your love,and the mercyof your wrath.
I witness my own unmaking through eyes that have seen the Abyss; the Void, eternal in its nothingness, has claimed another vessel, and in becoming what I am Not I have found what I Am.
On the other side of lightI find what I cannot see,I am what I am not,and there is only what is leftof a shadow eclipsed by firein the void of inspiration.